finally got home.. lol.. tired arh tired..

jus nw outside office there is a whole lot batch of those insect tht will attract to light whn after raining de.. is almost like a bee hive lidat sia my office door.. den i feel so erxin lo..

den i saw my dad run out den all chase after him.. eeeeeeeeeeee... den i was like see while all chasing him.. i run the other way faster get in the car.. lucky i nv tio alot..

ate my dinner and sit at living room and watch tv wif family they all... actualli tv got lots of shows to watch sia..

played awhile monopoly den my sis search the storeroom and found a game tht we play like 10yrs ago de lol.. i started to play it again and was actualli quite nice still sia..

after played awhile.. tok to frds in msn and went in cabal lend ppl alz.. and walk 1 round in cabal and logout le..

after tht.. i saw tht someone de blog.. hais.. remember tht whole evening i was toking to him.. tryin to wake his senses up.. but doesnt work at all prehaps.. frm the blog i oni see tht he's still imagining things..

truely say.. if those who met me in real life recently.. sld noe tis.. does i look like tht my heart still got him? and does i look like im escaping frm my life?? a guy who knew me oni for ard 8mths.. y he will tink tht he understand me more than my more than 2yrs de frds.. dunno i sld reli get angry or get fed up wif it.. he doesnt understand at all.. if im still the old ivy tht he knew.. y sld i still lidat whn he did so much after the incident sia.. nvm doesnt matter.. i say how much oso lidat.. as long my frds knew abt it.. im ok liaos.. if the someone really cldnt tink clearly of what i wana tell him.. there's nothing i can do oso rite.. no point telling him tht much oso liao isnt it.. let him be then.. since he wana dream in tht world.. jus hope tht he will realise it ba.. sometimes hors.. i actually reli reli dun like ppl who tell me tht they noe me more than others.. say the truth.. i dun understand myself tht much oso.. my characteristics and temper changed like dunno for how many times in awhile.. my taste of things oso changed alot alot very fast.. my mind doesnt tink the same oso.. he claims tht im still the old me.. oh well.. im not changing for the sake of him.. so i doesnt need to care abt his view rite.. i changed for the sake of myself.. i like the way i live.. so jus live the way i like.. y cares.. whn he say im still the old me.. i laughed.. i dun understand y ppl wana claims tht they noe the person very well.. does he reli noe me tht well.. more than i noe myself? i doubt so.. cos even my parents dun reli understand my things sometimes oso.. my beloved sister oso cant do tht oso.. 20yrs living wif them they oso cannt understand something.. a guy who noe me less than 1 yr.. hmmm =/ guess i dun ned say anything else le ba.. look at my blog de is jus my close frds and him oni.. close frds they know my feelings well now.. i dun ned scared abt they mistaken.. as for him.. i oso cannt do much..


i miss my jayce aiai~ she's coming back soon.. i miss her shoulder lol.. and her present frm bangkok hehes.. wonder what she will buy for me lol.. whn she's back i wana share wif her what happened within tis few days.. and oso tell her abt the baha's date lol.. my hp machiam bcome army guys de sms hotline sia.. whn bored in army or what will sms de sia.. LOL.. so far i got frm de is 1 of my sec frd,muaa,baha,norrec and alan lol.. but is ok la.. i told all my frds tht my hp number will be a 24hr sms hotline.. but not call de LOL.. cos sometimes i hate listening to calls.. unless u all ask me b4 calling lol..

my bag has been decided.. cfm tht i wil hab tht bag soon.. im so excited abt it.. the 1st bag i hab which is so exp de.. hmms.. gona start my assignment soon.. might be helpin 1 of my frd to celebrate bdae tis wk.. lol bdae present he wan is jus a dinner wif him.. dots.. but hope he doesnt want a very exp dinner LOL..

my diet plan is still continuing but it has slow down alot liaos.. was like cutting down ard 0.2kg - 0.5kg per day nia.. depending on what i ate and do.. hope by my bdae im able to hit back at least to the weight tht i had at last yr oct..

anyways.. what kind of person am i now lehs?? to me.. i will describe as... Stubborn, Attitude, Hot-tempered, Da Xiao Jie, Stingy, Gei Gao, Demanding de girl.. but im able to be there to help my frd whn they needs help or advice.. i can b nice to frds.. but once u make me fed up.. dun ever think tht u can make me back to the nice one.. i nv reli 4give much ppl who made me fed up and angry b4 de.. is somehow like 0.01%.. whn u pushin me till the borderline.. if u saw me toking to u in a way tht i dun even care abt what i tell u.. means u getting me goin to the fed up side.. once im there.. u wun b able to talk to me anymore as u like.. so dun provoke me lol.. my temper isnt good too.. try me if u dare xD