chicken sia.. kns.. early in the morning got a irritating guy call office liaos.. he has been calling since ytd.. keep asking me his cheque rdy liao or not.. kns.. my dad say he habent even done his work.. how to gib him cheque lehs.. den keep on ask ask ask.. ytd call like dunno 6 or 7 times to office and cfm alot times to my dad.. tis type ppl.. do business wif him 1 time nia.. no more nxt time.. cheap got what use.. let him chase like siao. rather dun want.. work not even done yet.. den today morning call..make mii drinking my milk tea halfway den too hot now "burnt" my tongue liaos.. kns.. stupid idiot..

anyways.. i jus realise frm what i post i habent say finish abt ytd LOL.. so decide to write abit more b4 getting started wif my work.. anyways jus saw his blog.. good game.. i doesnt wana tok to him anymore at all.. he really making hate him more.. i nv say i change my attitude to better.. i changed my attitude in the way not same at last time.. but im more hot tempered than last time.. so u pushed me to the fed up point and there u go.. i doesnt wana even tok to u anymore.. as usual ur views isnt same at all as me.. so there's no point to even tok to u anymore liaos. dun ned gib me anymore thing or do anything liaos.. my things u dun ned care anymore oso liaos.. i got enuff of all tis liaos.. last wk i still very happily living.. tis few days after toking to u lidat makes mii got so hot tempered..

whether u like it or not.. i wont talk to u anymore.. so in msn u doesnt need to talk to me.. dun ned sms me oso.. call me oso dun ned.. more dun ned is to come my hse here.. u tink u are so mature den let u be ba.. love to ppl got different view.. u got such a big difference den let it be then.. dun say till u have been so xin ku cos of me.. doesnt seem tht i reli so shu fu last time.. u say i like a princess.. yea so? in front of u lehs.. im like a what.. not everytime is u treat me nice nia lehs.. when u sick who run down help u buy panadol in the middle of the nite huh.. whn u ned help who always go help huh.. whn u miss me what did i do to make u happi huh.. whn u quarrel wif parents who is wif u all the way huh.. whn u poor who pei u eat whatever u wan huh.. whn u stress abt work who is there to help unstress u abit and help u abit in work huh.. whn u work till late in office who go secretly deliver dinner to u huh.. u everytime say u give in to me.. ya u did.. but so?? u hurt me lots of times oso lo.. all kinds of things u oso did b4.. sometimes is jus so ridiculous.. u always say u give in to me den who give in to u.. den u hurt me alot oso den who can i go to.. i always tell u 1 sentence.. girls need to be pampered oso de lehs.. im not those kind tht will like so called boy and girl is equal.. whn there is alot ppl wif us u will tend to put me aside there.. rem tht time tht i reli threw temper.. in there i remember ard 8plus to 2am lidat.. no songs to sing.. cos ned wait very long.. den all u did is keep tok wif them and didnt care abt me at all.. oni once whn jus started not long.. den all the way is me and jayce and tiffany.. whn we 3 went outside.. they oso realised it lo.. they somemore suggest me to reli gib u a big lesson by dun tok to u at all for few days.. till u realise the wrong there.. end up i still cldnt what.. i cried awhile but i still bcome gd back wif u.. another time is tht time u no money.. after admiral bar u wanted to walk home.. although i kinda angry wif u.. but i cant bear to see u walk home. so i go up the taxi tink awhile den ask the driver faster u-turn and go fetch u.. end up what i get is jus cold shoulders frm u.. and not any "hong" or what.. somemore i waited at ur hse downstairs for so long.. i got nth to do there.. except for keep smsing u and miss call u.. for 3hrs.. during tht 3hrs i cried 3hrs.. tht time i so so so cold until i wanted to gib up.. end up whn i saw u.. i cant do it again.. what else i can say lehs.. i oredi "xin ruan" so many times.. cos tht time my heart is still all u.. i keep on telling myself u will realise 1 day how to reli love me as the way tht u wun b so cold to me and dunno whn i ned to be pampered.. we quarrelled almost everyday during a period of time.. usually i believe there will be no happy ending for a relationship whn everyday oso got quarrel.. but i oso keep on telling myself to hold on liaos.. but during tht time.. guess im jus too soft hearted.. whn on 1st may.. i still got abit angry. but tot tht i will take it for the last time.. whn i heart abt weiqi de thing.. i cried out cos i tink of the quarrels tht we had.. the heart is jus so pain till i cannt stop the tears.. but after 1st may.. the quarrel started again. tis time u was so fierce and demanding.. till i wondering all tis things tht i do.. isit all i get is oni all tis.. i started to cry everyday at home.. den u keep on sayin all those things tht makes me reli reli depress till my heart started to fade away those happi memories.. leaving me oni fear and sadness.. till i reli dunno how liaos.. exam i oso got no energy to do.. i worried for u till i nv slp.. went to exam hall and fell aslp.. my exam sld b a gone case for tht liaos.. remodule is the oni choice.. but i oso no choice anymore.. sat i cont to be so worried.. and everyday lidat worried.. till the day.. u tell me u at my hse there.. ask me to look out for u for the last time all tht.. u wun b in tis world anymore.. again all tis things.. whn tht day i finally smiled abit.. i took back again cos of all tis.. tis time i reli dun wana take it by myself anymore.. i called shifu.. cos shifu actually asked me what happened to me all tht.. i told him wht i can.. he tell me to let him settle.. dun worry cos u cfm wun go die 1.. if die very early oredi did.. although he said so.. i all the way didnt enjoy the day till shifu smsed me tell me tht he's wif u den ask me to relax all tht liaos.. den i can get relieved.. those kind of stress for a girl u will noe mehs.. all this kind.. faded away the memories.. all i can do is to totally let it go.. and thats what i tink i suceed 100% liao de.. even now i type tis.. i dun feel any heart pain or sadness.. i can easily jus say out all tis.. ya u can save cos i dun love u anymore.. in tis relationship.. we 2 got tried for each other.. bt doesnt work out..

and i realised.. i more happi whn i reli totally got off frm all tis.. i cannt say tht i dun feel lonely at all whn i suddenly bcome single again.. but i got more happi cos of tis.. and slowly i realise tis is not the time for me to cry anymore.. i smiled.. i put all my love back to my family and frds.. my jayce aiai, baha, my jie mei, wenwen, feli, so many girls darlings ard me.. although i didnt contact them so long.. they still cares so much whn i so down.. even not close de ktv kakis.. quite some of them came to gimme a very very big moral support.. jus a simple sentence easily warmed my heart.. and i reli deleted the sad memories away quite fast tis time.. yea mayb memories cannt b deleted like a computer.. but what i did is to jus remove the sad memories.. ya im STM.. but i can chose to remember some of the good things.. sad memories if i dun go tink of it for sometimes.. it will be remove frm my mind and heart.. those good things.. like mayb we did very en ai during the period and is unique tht i nv do tht b4.. i still rem some.. but tht some.. i put as memories in my heart.. might not be alot.. but is oso a part.. not all i can remember.. i told him tht the most loved in my heart de is still 1st de.. mayb cos i got not much sad memories wif him.. alot of unique happi memories.. during 14 15 yrs old period.. did all those simple things but yet happi enuff.. but he mistaken tht my heart oni got 1st de and didnt hab him at all.. i oni told him tht i loved 1st de in heart oni.. whn i saw him happi i oso happi.. i got on to my life and i still found bf and i oso did my best for every bf.. i believe not oni me did tht norh.. cant b many yrs de relationship u can 4get so easily.. especially the sudden change between me n him within tht 1 nite.. even tht relationship.. i took oni a genting trip to stop cryin and being sad within it. i went to genting to shout out and push all the sadness into the shout and leave it in genting.. after i came back to spore after genting.. i remember i started to get along wif samantha they all.. and feli and wen was there for me.. i everyday go out wif they all.. and i reli totally 4get abt it liaos.. thts within 1 week.. and i can happily go on and on till now.. even i saw my 1st ex.. i can smile to him and say hello to him.. remember tht time wen and raymond they all tot i wanted to go slap him or something.. and alot more of my ex.. i loved them inside my heart.. 2nd 3rd 4th 6th and so on.. is all i loved in heart.. if noe all my things de ppl.. will noe 4th is actualli not both we wanted de.. he went into jail all this.. we oso didnt hab much quarrels and oni simple life.. he oso in part of my heart.. 2nd is so tall and handsome and cute.. almost like a model.. but he loved the innocent me so much.. till like is a dream for me.. normal life like eat dinner walk ard arcade and watch movie.. the rest i no ned say so much ba lol.. what i wana tell is.. every part of my heart de memory space.. is oni for those who i tink suit to be fit in to make me feel my life does hab happi memories.. i will smile whn i still tink of it even though due to some reasons we are separated..

now few exs is still waiting me.. but i cfm i wun choose any of them.. cos is jus like a finished writing storybook.. i wun cont writing after the ending anymore.. no more season 2 or what oso.. the oni 1 tht i patched alot times b4 is 4th de.. cos we reli didnt say break at all since the day together.. mayb is "you yuan wu fen" norhs.. wenwen sld noe hor lol.. she oso rem alot of my memories.. cos she's my 6yrs plus de jie mei liao.. being thru alot wif me.. hor si char bo.. lol.. she's always the 1st to noe whn i got a new bf.. cos everytime i shared wif her.. dunno y will feel very sweet.. sad i oso go to her.. cos the way she an wei me can make me feel strong after cryin 1 big round.. cos im her "mummy" ma lol.. last time i reli gib her hong bao whn new yr sia.. LOL.. we can play all day long 24hr together.. she can stay overnite at my hse and pei me play ps2 watch movies and shows.. and we can crap whole nite long outside.. sit at playgrd look at stars.. sharing our happiness and sadness.. feli and annie of cos oso.. but they abit more busy.. we are the 4 jie mei ma.. actually i reli owe them quite alot.. they reli reli did a big sucess of making me feel strong enuff to take any sadness now.. lol what am i doin in office tinking of our memories sia.. oi 4 jie mei gathering soon lehs.. i miss euu all crap together and bullying each other again.. the da jie annie and the 3 of us.. although to bdae im smallest but tht idiot wenwen always snatch my xiao mei place.. cos she say i dun look like xiao mei zzz.. im more strong than her.. and i always take care of her whn she needs someone.. mayb ba lol.. i worried abt her the most.. rem last time whn i still got curfew at home.. i heard her call and cried in fone.. i straight away dun care my mum and run out of hse and took cab rush to her hse there.. pei her thru the whole nite till she say she's ok liaos.. tried to help her find bf too.. but always end up the guy who i tried to pair wif her.. end up bcome like me.. hurt her for quite a few times le.. now i dun dare to matchmake anymore liaos.. i remember her 1st date she was so excited.. i remember is 17yrs old ba.. i helped her make up for her date.. and she keep on so shy tht she keep calling me.. cos her 1st bf oso noe me de.. bt her 1st bf actually jio 1st de is me.. den i let her keep on talking to him till he change his mindset.. bt i didnt noe tht tis wun last long too.. she is so hurtful till she cried so long and even cant get over it.. everyday i being wif her telling her.. and she did what i told her abt how i 4get.. although she took longer time than me.. she did it.. now she's the happi chubby wenwen tht i noe again lol.. got some major quarrels wif her.. but nahs.. she's too cute for me to hate her lol.. i cant bear to do tht to her.. she always hong me whn she noe i reli angry and she will always ji siao me till limit 1st.. lol.. hor hor~ wenwen~ lets jyjyjy!!! wei le our future jiayou!!! and feli all the best to u and hansong >.<.. remember im 4 jie mei de sao ba xing lidat.. annie got the fabian matter..>.< feli got her tht last ex de incident.. i 4get what name liaos.. as for wen is the ex matter.. annie and feli is cos tht guy bcome come jio me and spoilt their relationship.. wen is cos i go play wif those matchmaking thing.. jayce say i got super big tao hua ming.. but i dun reli wan it lehs.. is kinda hurtful sometimes.. suddenly tot of so much stories sia lol..

anyways guys.. if u saw all tis.. tink better tink twice again b4 u wana say u wan jio me again LOL.. although dun tink any of them will get my blog address unless ppl gib.. im a very very bad attitude ger and is a princess temper girl.. dun tell me lidat den good can be pampered lol.. im scared of all tis wrds.. say it whn u reli got 100% cfm tht u can do it.. read my stories b4 u tink lol.. recently got a few of them.. but dun tink i will accept any of them ba.. all my ex or frd de ex.. im getting sick of tht lol.. whn is time for me to go out and know new ppl.. den i will start to look ard.. so in the meanwhile.. to my family and my jie meis and jayce aiai and baha "jiemei".. im all u all de till the time hehes.. free lets go out and hab fun~! although i got exam soon again LOL..

Conclusion : LovE to me is a strange thing.. it can be very sweet.. can b very sad.. can b very fed up.. but cant live wifout it too.. sweet memories.. sad memories.. fed up moments.. is like part of the human life lesson.. different ppl got different life.. for me i learnt how to keep a love inside heart as memories after the relationship is gone.. i will oni daydream abt happi memories and not sad memories at all.. i will smile whn i tok to ppl abt my past memories.. whn saw the one i loved last time.. i will smile to them.. and bcame frds back wif them.. as long they dont make me hate them.. different ppl got different views abt love.. i tink i abt the same as my mum and sis.. frm what i see frm my sis and her bf.. due to everytime go out wif them.. they can b very childish whn outside.. pulling each other ears and nose scolding each other or chase each other out of house or car.. whn they quarrel my sis will jus come out living room sit.. all fones dun wan listen all tht.. will always use me as shield to pick up the fone and tell him she dun wan listen de.. they meet once or twice a week oni.. but they can take tht for so many yrs.. 5th yr liao tis yr.. mayb alot probs they hab but they didnt show.. but i can be sure my sis didnt quarrel wif him alot.. and my sis always claims tht he scared her go off nia in front of us.. in my heart i always say she sounds so much like me.. my sis always choose her own present and ask him buy de now.. he angry but a simple meal can make him jus pamper my sis by buying those exp things for her de.. tis is another kind of love ba.. doesnt ned to meet everyday or often every wk.. but can be still so en ai like everyday is a honeymoon month.. imagine a 27yrs old guy and 26yrs old ger.. playin mario oso can fight like a 10yrs old kid.. can bcos of 1 bear tht my sis like.. spent more than the bear cost de price oso worth lidat.. whn tio tht bear both can jump and so happily laughin lidat.. tis is the kind of love tht i always dream tht i wana find oso.. my sis oso 21yrs old then finally found tis guy who wana settle down and match wif her de.. will i able to find b4 21yrs old.. tis kind of dream love to me.. i wana b strong like my sister lidat.. be able to take anything and digest it very fast.. able to handle every situation well and get herself to be happi everyday.. so far i didnt get to see my sis cry cos of sadness still.. slp in her room wif her recently.. her life is oso so simple bt yet happi.. everyday play computer tok wif family den watch tv awhile.. do abit facial and slp.. weekend go out wif bf.. sunday sometimes go out wif us.. happi happi will go shopping for new things.. angry will jus scold out and shout out.. our temper are almost the same lol.. tht time i rem we angry the same person.. my sis say wan go scratch his car and scold him while i oso telling my mum tht if he dare scold abit or unreasonable abit.. i sure will scold back him.. my mum oso say y her 2 nuer both so hot tempered 1.. lol bt i tink i still lose my sis la.. since everytime quarrel she cfm win.. lol.. den i tink my mum is always nag at my dad but they still quite en ai.. mayb cos both of them has a funny character lol.. my mum is like sha da jie.. my dad is like always everything oso very funny lidat.. both of them always oso pull ears or beat each other hand or leg de.. tis is my happi family.. and im gona look carefully tis time.. i wana find someone tht like to be lidat de oso.. tis time jayce aiai gona help me look arh lol.. but see fate still.. need fate to start everything ^^

lastly.. woot tis post super long.. anyways.. i love my family and frds and jie meis and aiais~ <3 u all most..