17/07/2008 afternoon - night

afternoon keep on thinkin and thinkin what will really happened to me..

but evening i heard tht he's willing to put down all the things tht he do le..

i was quite happy tht he was sayin all this.. although it might not be all tht i happy abt.. but is ok ba.. cos since he thinks lidat... den lidat ba.. i dun wana ppl say i fake or what de.. so now i jus sincerely be a frd of him.. if he neds any ideas or what.. he can anytime come ask me as long as he likes..

the feeling at tht time is like.. hmm.. relieved.. after tht i immediately think of an answer to tell my mum what happened.. cos i cfm tht she will surely ask me immediately whn im back home de.. end up i tell my mum de is all i ownself cre8 de.. hais.. i told her tis 1 is last yr de thing le.. the person jus come and talk to me nia.. not reli tht serious.. den oso i bluff her say the money is jus 300 nia la.. end up still gana scolding.. but nvm la.. at least she nv scold me tht much compare to tht time 1500 and the 900 which she noes i lend to someone..

anyways.. was able to eat well for dinner den end up go eat alot lol.. after dinner still eat yoghurt and drink yoghurt drink.. dunno why jus feel like dun care anything for the time and jus eat whatever i wana eat..

i sit beside my sis and watch her play games while im tryin to study abit.. end up i watch game more than i write lol.. until 12am my sis went to slp.. den i watch TV while tryin to write out abit of the impt points.. 2am plus super tired den i went to slp while listening to songs i like..

18/07/2008 Morning - Afternoon

today i can relax and study liaos.. but i hope tht tis time round i really able to be relax for long..

anyways.. jus to say tht i will still able to be the frd tht will be trying my best to gib him any suggestion or a listening ear if he needs it.. even if he thinks tht im still the new ivy tht dun care abt him at all.. i wun disturb him but if he comes and talk to me.. i will show the concern of mine to him as a frd.. thts all i wana say.. as belle says.. is up to him to wake up now.. i wish him all the best too.. remember YOU CAN DO IT IF YOU WORK FOR IT!!! i noe u dun like me to repeat the sentence tht i always said to u.. but even if u dun wan to remember tht is me say de.. take it as Your family and frds believes in you~ you sure will be back the Nigel you used to be de.. Jiayou~

Anyways.. belle i not really tht angry with u or what liaos.. is jus tht.. tht period of time.. i really heard too much of different things.... till my mind dunno how to react.. and oso.. tht time i asked jayce to help me ask u the thing.. i really nv even think of wana say another else de.. i jus wana see if ppl tell me de is truth or not.. even if is truth.. i wun do anything oso.. i will jus delete the thing thts all.. in fact u nv really did anything or say anything directly to me.. and i believe u oso got ur thinking.. so i dun blame anything.. u say those things which is nasty.. i nv put it in heart.. no matter what.. hopefully all the things will turn out to be the end of it now.. although is quite impossible to go back to the life we used to have.. but then in my heart i will remember the memories tht we shared b4.. all the best to you too.. i will still remember u as the da jie da.. ^_^