31/07/2008 - 01/08/2008

didnt hab much things to say abt thurs.. is a normal working day and at nite stay at home.. keep on choingin my psp Audition game and managed to unlock all the items at 3am lol... den end up my hand pain till very jia lak..

01/08/2008

fri as usual work and work.. at 1st meeting baha and dennis at 8.30pm.. bt cos baha in camp till late.. den end up he ned to be late abit.. i reach there ard 8.30pm.. den smsed they both to ask where are they all.. den baha was on train still.. and dennis at arcade waiting.. i went up to arcade there.. den i sit at the entrance there.. abit strange feeling cos is like very long time ago since we being lidat oni 2 ppl sitting down there.. somemore he is my ex afterall.. dun tok like very weird.. tok oso dunno wana tok what.. lol.. bt lucky finally got abit topic to say den he tok abt his job now den awhile baha reach liaos..

we went to sing KTV till 12plus.. i didnt realise the time pass so fast lidat sia.. i like nv sing much songs oredi finish the session liaos sia.. den after 12plus.. we went to take cab to amk garden mac and use my laptop to xfer psp games from baha psp to my laptop and xfer my games from laptop to baha de psp.. den we played 3 times of audition.. i lost 2 times and win 1 time nia.. lol.. played too much during thurs.. hand still very pain.. den we played awhile DJ Max 2 and realise is quite late le.. den we went off and they both very nice de walk me till my hse there.. thanks u 2 lots ^^ while on the way i ask they both how much we knew each other liaos den ask them what is the difference between 2yrs ago de me and now de me.. end up baha say more money liaos and body size.. zzz.. den i ask him what abt character lehs.. so fast sia.. we knew each other for 2yrs plus liaos.. with jayce and dennis.. and those maple frds tht i knew last time.. is being so long.. and some of them i still got contact with.. miss the days i able to spend almost everyday together with them with laughters.. now de us.. all work de got work.. study de got study.. some dunno go where liaos.. hais.. lots of things happened in between bt then after 2yrs we still got contact.. although at 1st not noe each other at real life bt inside a game.. bt we can bcome like close frds lidat.. is a kind of a fate lol.. although i lidat say might be abit rou ma.. bt then still got to say.. if dun hab them.. i oso dunno now de me will be able to be still lidat ma.. without them accompany tis 2yrs.. i dunno how's my life gona be liaos.. with my jayce aiai de care and concern.. and baha tis buddy who lives near me with his baha style.. and dennis de ki siao and different character.. those days tht we always spent outside from nite till nxt day morning.. those days we played mahjong at jayce house and baha house.. those days tht we went movies and dinners.. those days tht me and jayce always laugh till cry.. lots and lots.. and of cos.. understand each other.. tht makes us able to communicate well and oso able to be there for each other if 1 of them needs help.. lol i tink alot of all tis sia.. cos tinking among all my frds.. the most close to me de is jayce,baha,dennis and some of my maple frds and oso my sec sch jie meis and darlings.. primary sch de sch frds although nv see them for few yrs liaos.. bt i noe they still remember me.. which i so guilty abt it.. cos whenever they hab gathering.. i failed to turn up even though they asked me to go.. hais.. anyways after tht after i reach home they both went off and i smsed baha to say thanks to they both den baha say dennis went off suddenly and put him alone there.. lol.. psps.. if not for me u go home from amk mac will be much faster >.< den after i reach home.. after i get changed all tht.. den i played the psp again.. till ard 5am plus den i fell aslp..

02/08/2008

sat was a boring day for me.. being slping till 10am plus.. den got woke up suddenly by a nite mare.. den use awhile com and went back to slp at ard 11am.. den slp all the way till 3pm plus den play com till ard 6pm plus.. den i realise my mum habent call back.. i tot she dunno tht im at home.. den i called her and tell her i super hungry.. cos i habent been eating since fri nite.. den she came back at ard 9pm with the meatball beehoon soup tht i want.. is being so long since i ate the whole bowl of bee hoon soup.. guess too hungry liaos.. lol.. den i went to bathe at ard 10plus and ard 12plus tht time i tried out our hse de new massage chair from OSIM.. i sit down there playin psp while massaging.. the pain is very de wohoo! although at 1st is pain.. bt then after tht is very nice feeling liaos.. like my back pain all tht suddenly evaporated lidat lol.. den i went back to my room and play awhile psp den watch awhile show den find handphone themes for both of my fone den went to slp..

03/08/2008

sunday.. as usual woke up at 7.30am.. so tired sia.. helped my mum to faster put themes to her fone oso and went back to msia.. den we ate dim sum as breakfast.. i eat here n there.. bt still eat abit nia of cos.. den ate 1/3 of a small bowl of porridge.. den while eating.. i saw a uncle who is handicapped.. left oni 1 leg.. goin ard with a bowl hope for ppl to gib him abit money.. i was tempted to gib him RM5 de.. but then i dun hab small notes.. den end up my mum and aunt say me.. no ned gib so much de.. cos alot ppl will gib de even all is abit nia.. add up oso got quite alot le.. bt i still tink they all very kelian lehs.. if 30yrs old lidat i become like him lidat.. i dunno what i will bcome.. my mum say actually they all can work still de.. cos got hands still.. bt then with oni 1 leg.. how to work easily.. oni can do those office work.. factory packing work.. or the worst is sell things like newspaper.. sit there oni lidat.. bt not everyone in tis world will be so nice to employ ppl tht cannt work easily and sometimes ned help still de ma.. hais.. world is real cruel.. things will always go against the dreams tht u used to hab..

den after tht we eat finish.. while on the car.. i asked my whole family.. if i go learn piano can ma.. bt then all say piano is too exp.. learn oso cannt buy piano to home.. no place put plus too exp.. den my aunt say arbo learn those piano tht can buy even at supermarket tht type.. 4get call what name le.. den my sis say guitar oso can.. violin oso can.. hais.. feel so confused sia.. wana learn a type of instrument den can sometimes whn bored.. compose a song to either comfort myself whn im depressed.. or cheer myself up whn im sad or bored.. or describe myself whn im happi.. tis is 1 of my dreams.. bt wun go and make till wana bcome song composer.. cos i noe i dun hab the "tian fen" for it.. although few of my frds say can de.. bt then i still listen to my own song.. even i record it down and listen myself singing.. i oso cant feel alot of the sadness in tht song.. mus improve on it.. and if really wana learn.. mus oso improve more on my chinese.. lol slowly tink abt it and plan abt it ba..

den my mum ask me why i so many dreams and interest 1 lol.. last wk i tell her nxt time after i got my degree i wana go study design to design my own clothes and nxt time if really can.. i can put to sell online or even save money to open a shop of my own to enjoy the life in the future with tis small shop.. bt still tis is very far.. cos i habent even got diploma cert.. mus wait the result.. and oso i habent even take advance diploma lol.. den told her tht my sch nxt batch for advance diploma is ard Nov tis yr.. den see how ba.. see my results 1st.. cannt be so cfm ma..

whn reach grandma house.. realise grandma habent back from clinic.. so we went to shopping centre to buy what we want 1st.. den later no ned go again ma.. den we buy all the things liaos den went back and start our mahjong session.. the weather and the sun is so hot until i headache and my hand de skin colour bcome pink colour liaos sia.. once i under hot weather too long with the hot sun.. i will get dizzy and easily headache.. den end up i keep on mind abt it and oni win 4 or 5 dollar.. den play 2nd round tht time is ard 3pm plus.. the worst hottest weather in tis mth for me sia.. i bth till we shift the table to another side bt still awhile later the sun oso reach tis corner.. i played till my eyes bcome seeing blurry images..

after tht i went to bathe and den took a bowl of soup and drink as dinner.. den my grandpa ask i no ned eat rice 1 mehs.. i tell him i nv eat rice recently liao de.. den they say no wonder i bcome suddenly like lost weight lidat.. jus in 2 mths.. lol.. i lost 10kg and managed to reach my original weight 55 - 56kg liaos.. bt still abit far from my target and my weight is starting to get very slow in goin down liao recently.. cos i hab been eating quite alot compared to starting liaos.. aiming to get to 53kg b4 my bdae.. bt dunno can or not.. since starting to get slow liaos.. got to buy new skirt all tht liaos.. tis yr new yr i buy the skirt which i like it alot de bcome very loose and wear belt oso cannt liaos.. cos the skirt too big den i wear belt will bcome a part of the skirt neds to be folded.. bcome very ugly liaos.. my newbie tee shirts all bcome like last time lidat.. wear le not so tight le.. so happi to see 1 and 1 of my clothes all can wear back.. bt oso those new yrs clothes tht i bought tis yr all cannt wear nice liaos..

reach home at ard 11plus and played awhile psp and tok to andy huang in msn awhile and went to slp..

hais.. dunno why suddenly feel like if time can go back to few yrs ago jiu hao liaos.. although i dun hab much money tht time, always gana bluffed by ppl, slack all day long and nv study at all, a terrible ger who oni noe how to enjoy.. bt now de me.. even though all tis has changed.. why out of a sudden i dun feel like im happi anymore.. den i realise is cos last time de me.. nv ever think of anything.. nothin really matters me alot.. bt as we grow up.. problems will slowly 1 by 1 come out.. my problems might not be a big matter.. sometimes i jus wish tht i got a thing to be able to jus wash off the problems tht i dun wish to hab.. bt life wun always work jus the same as u wan them to be.. nvm.. gona go thru it to get it as a energy to work even better for future life.. nothing is impossible.. JiaYou To aLL MY FRDS AND ME!!!